26 September, 2006
Yesterday morning I finished reading “Searching For God Knows What” (again) and I cried (again). I truly love the way Don Miller presents Jesus and the way we work out our life with him and each other.
Don’s view of “Life-Boat Life” is the story of my life and to see it so succinctly described and explained is refreshing and powerful – even the third time around.
Once again I find myself completely in love with Jesus who, makes lifeboat life obsolete and so ugly in comparison to the life that He invites us into here and now. His perspective, his truth, his reality, makes the pride building, ego-centric peer squabblings and pursuits so inconsequential.
And with a sense of awe at the prospect of life with Him and with the people around me, here and now, I continue to step out of the lifeboat and walk on water…
13 September, 2006
- every thought
- every word
- every act
- every hurt
Only His love can redeem these things. A jury of my peers can offer solice, support, empathy, contempt, love – but it’s not redeeming love, it can’t be, for even our love must be redeemed by His love – it is imperfect, it is conditional, it comes and goes, is offered and withheld, it’s whimsical – it will not last, it cannot last, it will always hurt – His love will never harm me, never, ever. He loves me. I have been redeemed.
Jesus, my kinsman redeemer – my goel.
6 September, 2006
I’ve been thinking about the aforementioned comparing/competing cycle that we humans seem to be caught up in, and am noticing how we spend the great majority of our time proving our worth in order to get kudos from others. It’s like we spend all our time trying to suck praise and admiration out of others, and we’re all doing it!
Listen to the conversations that happen around you, listen to the words, the pronouns, and note how many times you here “I” and “they” and “them” and “you” and “we”, and then note how many of these words are followed by the word “did…” or “said…” or “think…” It’s like we need to get our quota of reassurance each day.
I’ve also noticed that there’s a distinct difference between those who have a better handle on how loved they are, and those who don’t. The biggest indicators are:
- they aren’t constantly looking for someone to blame
- they readily acknowledge their faults
- they are genuinely humble
- they apologise quickly
- they rarely tear others down, but rather recognise their brokeness and have compassion for them
- they don’t need to be constantly reassured
- they’re low maintenance friends
- and possibly most importantly, they can freely give love away, recognising that it doesn’t cost them anything
Sounds wonderful doesn’t it? This is who I want to become, with Dad’s help… and love.